Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Friendships


"There are different wells within your heart. 
Some fill with each good rain, 
Others are far too deep for that." 
~hafiz


This evening, as the cool gray dusk silently deepens to a navy blue night I find myself feeling happy, peaceful, and more healed than ever. Good memories of Carlton's warm morning marigold egg yolks in their terra-cotta shells waiting to be tapped and peeled away make me happy. And I am made peaceful by memories of olive dark water, shared with Sarah, as it went rushing white frothily rejoining the celery blue river past potato shaped rocks. These are the thoughts of a watercolor artist as she has been taught to be.  

I am rejoicing in receiving and in remembering but will soon be resuming my regularly scheduled life. More than this place or this time, I will take with me the people. The beautiful people I will now always cherish and be glad to have had their adventures coincide with my own.

Thank you Bill and Sarah (and now Lois too) for your constant care, your gentle manner, and your complete passion for what you each do. Seems when passions collide 'Heaven' is formed.

And thank you all, Charlotte, Peggy, Anna and Diane, and Loretta, Amanda, Penny, and Sue. Your warm hearts shown so brightly above your painterly talents. And oh the conversations, laughter, and the joy.

This trip has a few more days to go. There are monasteries and mountains to see, but I am ever mindful of the good graces in which I am living. And the miracle, for me, is as this moment continues to roll into the next, I can actually feel my broken heart mend even more than it already has. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. For all of you I am truly grateful. I am missing you already.

Do you ever rejoice while taking stock of your day? Of your life? It truly is the best medicine.

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Friday, June 10, 2016

Florence, Italy


"...keep your mind and heart open. Growth occurs most readily when you are willing to RECEIVE." ~ Vedic text

I am all packed up! Been saying 
good-bye to Florence all day!

"The Duomo" Photographed lovingly at dawn.

Tomorrow I begin the Pisa portion of this potential adventure! I spent 5 hours in the Uffizi today! It was a magical time. 


This is a mythical character painting entitled, "Fortune." Oil on wooden panel cir. 1504 by Giovanni de Lorenzo Larciani. "Depicted is Fortune being lead across the sea by a dolphin, a symbol of rapidity and instability, while clutching a sail unfurling in the wind, an allusion to the voluble and uncertain nature of her path." Ain't she wild? Just one of the hundreds of treasures I discovered at this world class museum.

Sending everyone love from across the pond...

Lani (de Lorenzo) Chaves

PS - Today would have been my 16th wedding anniversary. Was a lovely way to celebrate! 

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Excited by Abundance



"It's opener there, in the wide open air." ~Dr. Seuss


When I ruminate on how many possibilities exist for this day or this life - my senses are no longer dulled. The longer I sit and quietly embody POSSIBILITY the more I cannot wait to see how this life will unfold. 

The vastness of trust that "all truly is well" wells up inside of me, makes my body tingle with excitement, and I have not even moved a muscle! 

I am vibrating forward from a NOW I am happy to KNOW. And I am moving easily toward a place I know I must go...

...wherever that may be.


What excites you?
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Saturday, May 28, 2016

With Disorder Comes Grace


Strength comes from struggle. 
When you learn to see your struggles as opportunities to become stronger, better, wiser, then your thinking shifts from "I can't do this" too "I must do this."
~toni sorenson


I am seeing ahead of me another tumultuous time of change in this life of mine. "Tumult" is defined as "a time of confusion or disorder." And as I am more certain than ever that this is of my own making... here is what I am learning about tumult.

One can survive well and move with ease and with joy during tumultuous times.

Old friends are indispensable during tumultuous circumstances.

New friends abound during a tumultuous time. But you have to allow this.

It is not only possible for love to expand exponentially during tumultuous times, it is very often probable.  

Extra body/self care is needed, no matter how well you are supported through your own times of disorder because tumult is physically exhausting.

A tumultuous event may occur over a period of time or only within an instant. Either way, it's ripples will always be felt flowing outward as it dissolves. So becoming more kind and patient are the constant gifts of a tumult as it moves toward completion. The question is will you accept these gifts into your life?

And lastly, I have learned that within the greater scheme of things these times of confusion or disorder are only momentary and the larger Truth is All is Well.

So these are my new rules of engagement as I sit here amongst the growing manifestation I called into being - which appears as disorder, but I KNOW IS REALLY IN DIVINE RIGHT ORDER.


How do you handle confusion and disorder?

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Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Creating Freedom


"The spiritual journey is individual, highly personal. It cannot be organized or regulated. It isn't true that everyone should follow one path. Listen to your own truth." ~ram dass

I am involved in Trusting. 

This idea, Trusting that things are unfolding for the highest good of myself and others, requires my active participation. Especially when my thoughts and feelings start to try and bend my attention in another direction.

Trusting is a practice. Trust requires a willingness to open my heart wider. Trust requires letting go of the past and of judgments. Trust requires a deeper look into circumstances that arise, at my own inner workings, and my perceptions about it all. Trust requires questioning what is really True. Do these ideas, or Trust for that matter, create great difficulty for you?

If you grew up, like me, in an environment that pushed more toward chaos than order, or if you have had the very human experience of being greatly disappointed - Trust may be the very last thing with which you are willing to be involved! 

But what if, instead of creeping slowly toward a small amount of maybe trusting again, you started with a big fat notion of TRUST? Not a naive blanket of trust in all people. But a larger Trust - part of a larger vision - that the Wheel of Fortune spins in just one direction.  And that direction is entirely in your favor. What if you leaned into the idea of looking for the smallest kernel of a lesson in a disruptive, disquieting, or painful situation as an active choice? This is the way it started for me. 

Somewhere between the totally unexpected death of my husband and the healing of my wounded heart I decided to refute what appeared to be happening and began to hold space for the idea that all experiences had one single purpose - to help me grow in awareness.

And with each successive experiment in active-say-it-out-loud-to-remind-myself-to-do-it-Trusting I created "nowness and newness." And from that came aha moments and loads of gratitude. I hope these words offer some guidance so others do not have to rely on personal trauma or loss to get to these places within. 

I hope a path can begin to be struck where it is OK to let go of what is familiar. I hope you too can begin to embolden the curious child inside - the one that wonders about things instead of judging them. 

As I become more of a witness to events rather than the center of them I find my perceptions stretching farther than ever before into unknown territory. This is where I unhitch the trailer of my past and find freedom to move more freely forward.

Mine eyes are opener as my heart claims a bigger role in seeing what I am experiencing. And this in turn is transforming my world. 

I am not great at this all the time. But leaning into and learning to Trust has given me a way to negotiate life's ups and downs with more steadiness, confidence, and grace. Strange as it may sound - I feel more grounded and connected to the world and my place in it by letting go and Trusting that "All is truly well."

I am not sure about the specific ramifications of how getting involved with Trust might serve you. It is a huge issue for so many people. But I am sure it is worth doing the work!

Since I have begun to play with these ideas in my own life, organically in my own way, I am amazed at the surprising outcomes life is actually able to provide me! And I TRUST life still has much to offer you as well...

What are thoughts around Trust?

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Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Inner Wisdom

"My energy today, and every day, is favorable for letting go of what no longer serves and embarking on new and exciting journeys. And all I have to do is decide." ~lani chaves

So funny to quote myself, I know. Me, a budding painter now wants to he a budding writer. I want my passion to be creative to be of some use to others. But I have no idea what that looks like. I do not know how to begin, and I haven't a clue what I have that others may want. 

So I am submitting the most specific question I can think up to help move me along on my path...

"What is mine to do, be or say today that will bring me great joy and also serve well myself and others?

I now let this well considered question go - knowing that by merely asking this well considered question mindfully and with an open heart, the answer is on it's way to me. 

This asking well considered questions and easily receiving answers, has become part of a practice of living a life of JOY & EASE. For I have discovered we all have exceptionally easy access to our own questions. And within every well formed question, asked with an open and receptive heart, exists hidden within it an answer perfectly taloired to our specific need!


What is your well considered question, the answer to which will change your life forever for the better?

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Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Energy Work

"Even after all this time, the Sun never says to the Earth,"You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that, it lights up the whole sky." ~ Hafiz

Energy. 

Can you feel it inside you? It is always there, usually very subtle, but always there. I am feeling great gobs of it right now because big changes are happening all around me! 

Tuning into your own energy has got to be a good thing. Awareness of any kind is a good thing, but energy awareness is really a good thing.  It is not your mind. It is you in a purer form. It is one of the most subtle forms of communication. It is a very real, deep, and wordless thing. I was never taught this. It was not an option growing up. But I know it now and it helps to guide me.

Energy has no words, but it communicates just the same. When I tune in, sit quiet and still, I am practicing the art of feeling the flow of energy. A natural river inside me, it connects me to energy all around me. The more I consciously make time to practice, do energy awareness work, the easier it becomes. 

I am not going to say what it means or how it works or why it is, or where it comes from. It has no words - remember! But I have found that because of my work - my energy awareness work - when I am not practicing, just living my daily life, I pick up quicker on things important to me because I am so much more closer to the surface of my authentic life. I love this accessibility! I trust it. It grounds me. It informs me…all without words. 

Energy has become a silent place inside me that feels like home. For this ever deepening awareness of my own inner compass I am so grateful.


Could you use an artisanal compass personally crafted by time, energy, and awareness? Isn't this work worth doing?

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